The Wonder of God as Witness

Do you ever feel invisible, as though you or your efforts are unseen?
At the same time, do you ever feel relief that no one sees some of the things you think, watch, or do?

“I am the one who knows, and I am witness, declares the LORD.”  (Jeremiah 29.23b)

People we live with, work with, have fun with, share deep things with see us – in part. Some love, forgive, help, hold us accountable, pray. Others judge, criticize, are indifferent, talk. And the same can be true about us toward others – in part, we see.

God alone is the one who KNOWS. God alone is WITNESS. Nothing is unseen by God.  Nothing confounds Him. Nothing changes His Perfect Love for you and me.

He is witness to our hurts and offenses—and how we hurt and offend others. He is witness to our words toward and about others—and others’ words regarding us. He knows when we’re trying to follow His ways—and when we’re willfully choosing our own. He knows our hopes and disappointments, how hard some things are for us, and how we feel about our self. We cannot wear a mask with God. 

“I am the one who knows, and I am witness, declares the LORD.”  (Jeremiah 29.23b)

These words may comfort us or make us uncomfortable.
Embrace both and draw nearer to Him. Be awed and humbled, healed and changed.

God made us for relationship—with Him. Perfect Love shaped you and me. Think about that for a minute. . . Perfect Love held you and your days were written, “…plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29.11b) This has not changed—God continues to hold you; He isn’t rewriting or editing His plans for you or me. Our sovereign Father IS completing His work in and though us, all to His glory.

Dear God,
We are comforted by your deepest knowing and witness to our heart pain. And, we are humbled by all that you know and witness in our heart and life, yet your love never changes. Thank you for Jesus, your amazing grace, that we can know your love in both comfort and in correction. Help us remember that you are with us all through the day and night. Teach us to depend on you and trust you as you fulfill your plans in us. Amen.

Our First Love

I spent some time with my mom recently. (She lives a few hours away.) She has Alzheimer’s. As I approached her, the caregiver leaned toward her and asked, “Do you know who that is?” One more time I was blessed with her frail words, “It’s Teresa.”  And I whisper thanks to God.

At some point in our visits, I scoot my chair close to her wheelchair, wrap my arms around her and rest my head on her shoulder. Sometimes she brings her hand up to mine, and I feel like she’s holding me. I know that doesn’t make sense . . . Her touch simply represents the strength of her love over the years.

When I arrive and before I leave, I turn her chair to face me, look into her eyes, smile, and tell her how much I love her. Each time, I feel like I’m held in the moment, as I look into her blue eyes. Her words are few these days, but she still speaks love through those eyes. She always has.

A little over a year ago, a traumatic incident almost took Mom’s life. As a result, she was hospitalized, non-communicative, and only briefly opened her eyes to then sleep again. One night while I sat with her, she began to murmur, so I put my ear near her mouth. She never opened her eyes, but her words became clearer as she repeated this prayer over and over again, “Jesus make thou my heart humble; Make it humble unto thine.”

Jesus is always with us. Our prayers respond to His presence.

As much as I wanted to help her, I was comforted to realize she was being held by the One she needs.

Hard stuff is woven into the fabric of Mom’s life—just as it threads through yours and mine.  God was her Go-To and her First Love . . . and I trust Him, that He still is. Often she would say, “I know God must be tired of hearing from me.” Her words spoke instruction and inspiration.

Our First Love is the One who first loved us.
“We love because he first loved us.” (1 John 4.19)

Our primary go-to is the one we trust most, the one whose love we believe above all others.

“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4.19)  In all that we ask for, God first gives our truest need—Himself.

As we spend more time with the One who first loved us, He grows us aware of His love for us. He becomes the one whose love we depend on, the one we trust above all others. Our First Love becomes our primarily Go-To.

Dear God,
May the truth of your Word—that you first loved us—permeate our heart, this day. Thank you that you loved me long before I was even born. Your love for us never changes. No one can love us like you. Help us draw nearer to know you as our First Love, our greatest love. Amen.