Monday I had a little meltdown. It started as a whisper, “What am I doing?” Within seconds as I looked around my workspace, my suppressed feelings of inadequacy and overwhelm emerged as tears—and another whisper, “God, I don’t know how to do all this.”
After a good cry and a more thorough cry-out to God, his peace filled my heart. My circumstance had not changed. I still have a lot to learn and do. God changed my troubled heart. I emptied the burdens in my heart to God, and he covered those spaces with his presence, love, and peace.
Our meltdown themes vary from the trivial to the truly troubling. As my husband can attest, my closet has been the scene of more than a few trivial meltdowns, “I don’t have anything to wear to this!” – Never mind that I’m staring at clothes on hangars. The troubling meltdowns tend to involve a loved one or a circumstance.
God uses our emotions to help us realize the condition of our heart. Either we have a pity-party focused inward, or we can focus upward and gain God’s perspective. Do you believe that God wants to help you in the trivial, too? Well, he does. Sometimes it’s through turning to him in the trivial that we learn he is truly near, listens, and desires personal relationship with us.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” (Proverbs 3.5–6)
God holds you and me. He holds our children. AND he never ever lets go. God is with us always and he’s for us. He has the way forward and faithfully provides his light at our feet. Practice being present to his presence.
Turn to him with your feelings of inadequacy, disappointment, discouragement, or overwhelm. Release these to him. Invite him to meet you where you are and fill you with all you need from him.
I choose to trust you Lord for . . . Fill my heart with your love and peace. Today, I choose not to lean on my understanding—what I see and hear. Help me unload to you daily and to receive more of you. Help me acknowledge you as I move though the day—as I work, drive, prepare meals, or engage with my family and community. And I thank you in advance— in faith—that you WILL make my path straight. I love you. Amen.